Chapter 132
Chapter 132
42. My Fear & Surrender
TRIGGER WARNING – CHAPTER CONTAINS DISTRESSING SCENES – I will mark the most upsetting part with a double line of ***** YILEYNA. I looked in the mirror at the gown that I wore, trying to calm the storm that bubbled beneath the surface. It was the following day, and after being given food and allowed to bathe, two omegas had come to help me get ready. Now, save for the thick black collar around my neck that was cutting into my skin, I looked like a queen, but it was not the queen I wanted to be. I was wearing an off-shoulder amber gown, that was cinched in from the waist with a jewelled corset, and skirts that flowed to the floor with two slits down the sides. My hair was up in a coiled bun, adorned with a gold tiara. My arms and hands were covered with jewellery, and my make-up was dark. Theoden’s queen, that was what I had become, but I didn’t recognise the woman staring back at me. I wish I had some way to contact Deliana, but goddess knows where my necklace was. I had tried to reach out to Raiden, since he was meant to be in Theoden’s hold, but it was clear they were bound in silver or given wolfsbane. I would need to tread carefully. I was now in the Alpha’s quarters, in the room that once belonged to the previous king and queen, and although Theoden didn’t come here last night, I wasn’t so sure that would be for forever. I had seen the way his eyes had ran over me, and it made me shudder. The doors opened, and the monster himself stepped inside. He looked me over and gave me a small nod. “You now look befitting of being my queen… Don’t you agree?” I didn’t reply as he came over, my chest heaving with unspoken rage that I was trying to hide. He grabbed hold of my jaw, squeezing it painfully. I could feel the darkness around him that I hadn’t noticed or felt last night, it was more than his own evil, this darkness felt like Arabella’s. It encased him like an armour.
“You will answer when I ask you a question. Understood?” He hissed. “Understood.” I replied icily. He let go of me, but he didn’t get angry as I expected, instead he looked at me again. “You’ve changed since you escaped. You no longer look like the girl who left from here.” “It’s only been several weeks, I am still the girl I was.” No I wasn’t, not in mind or body, but I didn’t like the way he was looking at me, as if he had not seen me properly before. He let out a sinister chuckle as he stood behind me. “Lies.” He whispered in my ear. I wanted him away from me, but I was not ready to anger him when he had so much that he could use against me. The image of the two children came to my mind, and I closed my eyes, wondering about their parents. Did they know their children are dead? “Do you know what day it is today?” Theoden asked, his fingers ghosting down my back. I pulled away and turned to face him, my stomach twisting. “No, I don’t, but I am sure you are about to tell me.” “Today is the day I have announced to the entire city that we will officially unite in matrimony, very soon, and become the King and Queen of this kingdom. The entire city will see that you have consented to this marriage. Isn’t that what you wanted? To be queen?” No, but for some reason you want me to be your queen. “No, but I have no choice. Tell me, Theoden, why do you want me as your Queen when the kingdom is yours?” I asked, trying to remain as calm and respectful as I could.
His eyes darkened with fury as they blazed orange. “You will not question me, your only duty is to stand by my side, understood?” He hissed, grabbing the back of my hair and yanking me closer. “I SAID, DO YOU UNDERSTSAND!” I flinched, before clenching my jaw, feeling the pull on my powers. The red symbols began spreading from the collar, and I took a calming breath. Was I harming my people? But I was right, there was definitely a reason behind him wanting me as queen. “I understand.” I almost spat. “Good, then soon we will be married.” With those words he strode to the
door. I watched him leave, my heart thumping. I could almost see the darkness around him, just the way it surrounded Arabella… The door shut with a resounding slam, and I let out a shaky breath. I looked at the windows, they had been barred… Theoden was not going to take any risks.. I didn’t expect the wedding to be so soon, married to Theoden… would he mark me? I thought I’d have time… I needed to think of a plan, fast. I closed my eyes, placing my hand to my forehead as I began pacing the room. Think Yileyna, think… Hours had passed and night had fallen, yet I still had no plan. I had been dragged from my quarters to appear on the balcony of the castle, and I had seen many people gathered below, many whom I recognised were of the Silver Storm Pack. I had been made to wrap a scarf around my neck, to hide the collar that was sealed around it. For obvious reasons, Theoden didn’t want to let the people know about it. A ruler is nothing without his subjects, no matter how much power he had, he needed the people on his side. His words replayed in my mind and I frowned. ‘Together, the heart of Kaeladia and myself, will be bonded in matrimony! We will rule this world side by side!’ Not rule the kingdom, but rule the world? Was it a mistake on his part, or did he literally mean that? “Goddess, what do I do!” I muttered in irritation. The only thing I could think of was Arabella, she was the one who had created this collar, meaning she was the one I needed to kill first… Plus I knew Theoden would be on full alert around me. I could try to kill him, but I had to make sure my plan was fool-proof, otherwise, he would kill many more of my people to punish me. I sighed as I leaned my head against the wall of the bedroom. I wish I had an answer… I heard footsteps approach, and swiftly I moved to the bed and lay down on it, steadying my breathing as I pretended to sleep. The key turned in the lock and the door opened, but still, I focused on my breathing. It was Theoden and a scent I didn’t recognise, along with the delicious taste of roast chicken and potatoes, but even if I was hungry, I continued to pretend to sleep. My chest rose and fell steadily. “Place the food down, if she awakes, she will eat it.” Theoden said coldly. “Leave! And close the door behindFrom NôvelDrama.Org.
you!” Why was he staying? Despite the fear beginning to gather in my stomach, I continued to breathe steadily. The door shut quietly, and I heard his heavy footsteps approaching. I was ready for his touch and I didn’t react, although I wanted to recoil. His fingers ran down my shoulder slowly, the touch of a man with evil intentions. “Beautiful indeed…” He murmured before his hand brushed over my breast. My eyes snapped open, and I grabbed his wrist, stopping his advancing hand. My hand felt like it was on fire, the darkness biting into me so much I hissed in pain. He smirked coldly. “Do you think I would be around you without any protection? I know what you are capable of, wench.” He growled before shoving me back onto the bed. “I thought you were asleep?” “I was. But I am not a fool to not sense someone touching me.” I hissed. So I was right, there was some sort of protection around him. “You are mine to do as I please with, and if I say you will spread those legs, you will.” This man was a monster… The hatred within me was bubbling, and I was unable to control my anger as I felt my teeth sharpen. “You will not touch me.” I warned menacingly, trying to rein my powers back. His eyes flashed as he slapped me across the face, that was clearly this bastard’s favourite move. “You will be marrying me and I will be fucking you, whether you want it or not. You are nothing more than a whore!” Over my dead body. “Then your men will be ready to die.” I hissed. I was unable to control the rising anger, but when he let out a dark chuckle of amusement, I felt uneasy. “‘What a disobedient one you are, I like it… Keep going. I will bring those who have died because of you losing control to you.” Those words made my anger vanish, replacing it with fear. I could tell he was telling the truth… Calm yourself, Yileyna. It was hard, the siren side within me wanted to lash out and attack. Did I kill someone? I needed to control myself but it was getting harder. “Ah, how I wish I kept Andres alive… at least long enough to fuck his daughter in front of him, and then let him watch as I passed you onto my men when I was done.” He chuckled darkly, and I had to fight myself not to react. Breathe…
My people will die… Calm down… His words had created a storm of anger within me, and not only was I fighting the urge to unleash hell, but I was trying to reign my emotions in so no one else suffered. I could feel the sharp pain around my neck, almost as if the collar wanted to react. “Seems like you have learned your lesson. Ah, look, a present for your loss of control. Come in!” Theoden commanded. The door opened to reveal one of Theoden’s men, holding a bundle which he tossed onto the bed. What was it… A chilling thought came to me and I prayed it was not so. “Do open it.” Theoden laughed raucously. ***************** ***************** My heart thundered as I reached over, opening the blanket to see the lifeless body of a baby, but what made my blood run cold was the red engravings that covered his entire skin. Engravings just like the ones on my collar. “It’s one of the Omega’s, I heard her screaming that her child has simply died.” The man said in a gruff voice. I did this Goddess… “Ah I see… Oh dear, what have you done? And how many more lives will you take because of your anger?” Theoden taunted. “Now, see the thing is, every time you act selfishly, you will only be killing the innocent. The weakest will go first.” My eyes stung with tears of anguish and pain. I had killed another child. The door shut behind the man, leaving the lifeless baby on the bed. With shaking hands I reached over, wanting to fix the odd angle his head sat at, only for Theoden to let out a menacing roar. “Leave it!” He grabbed the bundle and threw it across the room. 2 I screamed as I jumped off the bed, in a flash I was across the room, but I was too slow as it hit the wall
and dropped to the floor. I picked the baby up from the floor, cradling the lifeless body to my chest. I was unable to stop the tears that fell down my cheeks. “I’ll do what you want, just stop hurting them! Stop this!” I screamed, pressing my lips to the baby’s forehead. I’m so sorry. What have I done… “Good. So how about you throw that thing out and strip.” My head snapped up to the monster before me. I looked at the baby in my arms, a child whose life was stolen from them before even having a chance to live… I stood up and placed the bundle safely on the dresser. ****************** **************** I will somehow try to get you back to your parents. I promise. “Now undress.” Theoden commanded as he began to undo the buttons of his shirt. Fear enveloped me, and when I reached for my corset, I realised I was shaking. I was scared, so scared… I looked at him with blurred vision as he advanced toward me. “Good… Now… Show me how well you pleased my son in bed.” He was disgusting. I flinched when his hand grabbed my sleeve. Suddenly Theoden froze, his head snapping towards the door just as it opened to reveal Arabella, never had I been happier to see her. She bowed her head, but I could sense her panic as she breathed heavily, a clear sign she had run fast. “Your son is back, Master.” 4 I fell to my knees, a shuddering whimper left me as Theoden strode to the door. “Lock her in.” He commanded, but I could hear the tension in his voice. The moment the door slammed shut, I covered my mouth with my hands to muffle the sob of relief that left me. Theon. Theon was here.
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