Chapter 65
As I walked through the pounding music of the club, I completely ignored the naked flesh all around me.
I was consumed with guilt.
I had just had the best sex of my life, and not with my boyfriend.
Although –
Was it really sex if neither of us had been naked?
He hadn’t been inside me.
I hadn’t even seen his penis.
And yet, I knew that was all a rationalization.
I’d just had sex…
And it had been amazing.
Far better than any experience with any other man I’d been with –
And a hundred times better than with my current boyfriend.
My face flushed hot with shame.
I hated the fact that my boyfriend was probably looking for me right now, worried out of his mind –
And I would have to confess what I’d done.
I dreaded it…
But I knew what I had to do.
I moved from room to room, looking for him –
But I couldn’t find him.
Terror welled up inside me.
Did he go back to the hotel?!
Did he know what I’d done and left me here in outrage?
I felt sick with guilt –
Until I finally found him in the group sex room, exactly where I’d left him.
In an instant, I didn’t feel guilty anymore.
Just outraged.
He was standing there with his pants down around his ankles, his head thrown back, and his mouth open –
As two naked Thai women knelt in front of his crotch, servicing him simultaneously.
“WHAT THE FUCK?!” I shouted.
He snapped out of his trance and looked over at me in panic.
The two Thai hookers both looked at each other like Uh oh.
“Babe – I didn’t know where you’d gone!” my boyfriend wailed pitifully. “This isn’t what it looks like – I love you!”
I stormed out of the room.
“Babe, wait!” he cried, waddling after me like a penguin with his pants around his ankles.
I ran out of the club, caught a cab, went back to the hotel, and started packing my bags.
My boyfriend arrived ten minutes later. Instead of pleading and whining, he switched to accusatory yelling.© 2024 Nôv/el/Dram/a.Org.
“Where the fuck were YOU for an hour, huh?!”
When I wouldn’t tell him, he grew enraged –
So I left with my suitcases, went to the front desk, and got another room.
I spent the night alone.
Eventually, I felt guilty that I wasn’t any better than my boyfriend.
After all, I’d had a sexual encounter with a stranger, too.
But I kept coming back to the image of the two naked Thai women and quickly got over my guilt.
Instead, I fell asleep dreaming of my hour with Yeong…
And the feeling of the ropes around my ankles and wrists.
The next day, I called the airline and changed my flight so I didn’t have to sit next to my boyfriend on the trip home.
I thought about staying another week in Bangkok and going back to the club to see Yeong –
But in the harsh light of day, I was mortified by what I’d done the previous night…
So I decided against it.
Once I returned to Hong Kong, I texted my boyfriend we were through and blocked his number.
I felt a little guilty –
But mostly, I was relieved.
I couldn’t go back to more boring, mediocre sex with him –
Not after what I’d experienced at the club.
Still, I had an internship to start, so I put aside my memories of that night.
I was determined to forget all about Thailand and go back to my normal life –
But nothing about it would ever be normal again.