Chapter 34
I was about to hush Richard for speaking that way to Ohio who did not look offended, Ohio chuckled at Richard’s word before saying.
“I’m sorry to irritate you but you will definitely feel better when you are out of here. I may not know when you started with Becca but I learnt that you broke up with her just to date her friend, and when the relationship went sour you decided to return to the same person that you disespected and trashed her feelings. You should really be ashamed Mr man. How can you come back to your vomit? Remember… she wasn’t good enough, her beauty and class wasn’t to your level anymore, she got no romantic action and was not pretty enough… even her age was begining to bore you. Let me ask you, has Becca’s class suddenly improved, her age reduced, has everything that made you run off to be with her over qualified friend changed all of a sudden? Is very obvious that she is still same person you left to pick stones just like you put it. I’m glad to hear you say that you are sorry for hurting her because you really did hurt her but asking for another chance all of a sudden is not appropriate. Give her time to decide on your apology first before coming to ask for a chance. I don’t know it all but that is my own little advice.
Ohio took a step forward to the door after talking to Richard, I thought he was about to walk out, i quickly grabbed his hand.
“Please don’t leave Ohio… Stay. Richard is not welcomed here. He should rather be gone because I have no business with him ever since we broke up. Ohio, you are the man I truly want and love and I beg you to stay here with me. Don’t go because of Richard…
I said to Ohio while holding onto his hand.
“I wasn’t going anywhere Becca, I’m not leaving you alone with him except if you ask me to go but aside that, I’m right here with you.
I nodded and watch as Richard turned to leave.
He looked back at me and then at Ohio and said.
” She rejected me now because of a common mistake and you are supporting her blindly. Watch out for her because the Becca I know can be very desperate. She practically informed all her family and friends that I was going to propose to her on her 28th birthday, and I never even thought of proposing. She sang marriage like song to my ears non stop even before then. That’s how desperate she can be. You are acting like a lover boy now, watch out for her low self esteem and desperation which can drive you crazy and make you take off without looking back. Yes, I love her but she must hear the bitter truth… and is a sincere advice from me to you Mr “gentleman”.
Ohio gasped out, he smiled and said.
“Alright, thanks for the advice. I will definitely watch out. If that’s all you have to warn me about, then is time we say goodnight to each other!
Richard hissed as he walked out of the door with a moody face.
Ohio’s calm and calculated word was like salt to Richard’s injured heart.
Richard is really a fool to suddenly sell me off cheaply to Ohio. Was I really desperate with the way he portray me? I dated him for three years, my friends who did not date their men up to a year or two were getting married. My parents were on my case every now and then, I was getting older and wasn’t a child anymore. Richard was not talking about settling down and when I asked him what his plan was, he assured me that very soon we will get married. I got excited with the news and believed that he will propose during my birthday but he came in late almost at same time with JoJo and left without spending time with me. I love with everything in me, and that was the way I loved Richard. I loved him and wanted him to be my husband but the foolish Richard mistake me to be desperate and having low self esteem. I may appear so but it was the pressure I was getting from all angle, especially from my parents makes me looks weak and desperate. I’m glad he broke up with me, it was painful initially but I’m happy he did. If we have gotten married, he would have remind me one day that I forced him into marriage with my desperate attitude. And such word will really hurt me. I wouldn’t have met a loving gentle man like Ohio if Richard did not Leave me for JoJo.
I locked the door as he stepped out. Richard’s last word really got into me, maybe Ohio also see me as a desperate lady but will not want to say that to me so that I won’t feel bad.
It was as if I was competing with everyone but no matter how I try they still went ahead of me.
I don’t want Ohio to see me or misinterpret my behavior as desperate.
I know I’m turning 30 soon but I think I need to slow down my heart race.
The way I love deeply which affects my personality if anything goes wrong, I don’t want to love that way without reserving some for myself.
I need to love myself first and admire the girl I was and the strong lady that I have become.
“Becca, you are quiet? I hope you did not take any of his last word to heart? Your ex is the desperate and a confused one and not you, if not he won’t be here begging for a chance to be in your life again.
Ohio Said to me as we sat down, he try drawing me to himself but I was fine sitting straight with my head resting on the chair.Content property of NôvelDra/ma.Org.
“What is it Becca? Are you alright…
“Yes, I am. Thanks Ohio for defending me in front of Richard and not picking offence with his presence here”
He moved closer to me and just as usual he smell so good.
“You said that you love me… right in front of your ex. Did you mean those words or you just wanted to use it and scare your ex off? Please I need a sincere answer… and trust me with the truth because I will never hurt you with it.
I was quiet for sometime. I will tell him the truth, there is no harm in that but I will guard my heart so that nothing will take me by surprise.
“I meant every word Ohio. I love you and I did not hide or holdback my feelings from you. I let it out shamelessly. it really hurt anytime my love is not reciprocated. I try to let you see how much I want you at the resort Beach… that night you turned me down and I felt heart broken. But I try to understand…
He gently turned my face to him and slowly kissed me for sometime before releasing me.
“Becca, I love you maybe more you can imagine. I hardly fall in love with a woman and when I do she occupies every fiber in me and if I get turned down I takes me a Long time to fully get back my real self and move on. I was careful not to love the wrong woman… I took my time until I met you but when I try by inviting you for a boat cruise you turned me down with being engaged. I accepted to play the role of a fake fiance because I love you Becca. At the beach house, that night, I really wanted you more than you do but you may mistake it as a form of payment for playing along with your parents. I made it clear that I don’t want any type of payment and I will not like to take advantage of the moment and make it look like you were paying me back with sex. I only wanted to make you realize how much I love and desire to be in your life. I’m sorry for making you feel dejected, I can not deliberately hurt you Becca. You can have me all to yourself tonight and forever. I’m all yours… but we will take it slowly and not rush ahead of ourselves.
Another kissing follows which I was enjoying until I remembered Lili.
I quickly turned off.
My emotions was draining dry at the thought of another woman in his life.
He try kissing me again but I turned my face away.
“What’s wrong… what is the problem Becca? Talk to me…
He asked trying to draw me closer to himself.
“Lili? Is she your wife… girlfriend or baby mama? I really don’t like trouble in my life, I try to be transparent enough but I will not like to become a night mare for another lady or be the reason a woman goes to bed with a heavy heart because I know how it feels. Whatever she is to you, please tell me. is better I know now than to be hurt later. I know you love and care about her and from the little I understand, she loves you too. No matter the love we share, is better we do things right so that we don’t allow our selfishness to hurt others. See, I have being there and I know what heart break feels like…. I don’t want anybody to experience such…
He smiled, straightened and bent his head. Still smiling.
“I did not even thought that you had Lili in mind. Becca, you should have asked me earlier, maybe at the beach house when we had enough time for ourselves or even before or after then and I would have opened up instead of allowing unnecessary issue to bother you. Lili is not a threat to you or anybody… maybe I will take you to Lili tomorrow or next. Any day you are free. I don’t want to tell you who she is or what she means to me, but I want you to meet her in person. Okay?
I nodded and went back to his arms.
He talked about his growing up as a boy, he talks about his brother Klint and some relatives that were there for his family when his mother had cancer of the heart. Everyone thought she won’t make it, all her hair fell off and she looks like a skeleton. Even their Dad gave up but surprisingly his mother survived the chemotherapy and gradually recovered fully.
We talk into the night, I was relaxing on his body while we talk about our lives and growing up days.
I looked at the time it was 3am. Despite how much we wanted to jump into bed and release all our stored emotions, we agreed not to rush things but to rather take our time before going the extra mile.
I slept off in his arms right in the sitting room, he also did and support his head with throw pillows but his body was my own pillow.
I awaken with a knock on the door again that morning, I sluggishly went to check and it was Silas asking me to join him in jogging because it was a Saturday.
I told him that I was tired and won’t be joining him.
He Left. Ohio was already up and was washing his face in the bathroom.
He came out and gave me a good morning kiss.
“I will be going, you need enough rest and I also do. Let me know whenever you are free and I will drive down. We may spend the evening with Lili… if you don’t mind.